When I wrote a recent post called nightfall, I thought back to many other nights and the sounds that were different in life. A lot less peaceful. Scary. Bothersome. Then I thought I should share a different kind of nightfall. One many will never know and most would never enjoy.
The haunting night from a child’s eyes. One of many scary night scenarios that happen behind closed doors. Do you think you know what this story will be about?
Maybe you think know but I doubt you really could know unless you lived in these shoes. The sounds of the night that are not so bright. So here goes.
Boom! Wake up! A loud shriek from the other room. A bang on the wall. Now more pounding. A loud scream. That’s my brother making those noises. What is happening?
In the middle of the night it happened again!
What is it? Why am I wide awake? What time is it?
At first I didn’t know but then my parents explained it me.
Boom. Aaaaaaahhhhhh. Shake shake shake. Boom. Ahhhhhhhh. Ouch! Another high pitch shriek. A piercing duh duh duh duh duh sound on repeat. A fearful and painful scream.
That is my brother making those loud sounds as my parents rush to him. What is going on I asked?
Go back to bed, says mom.
I peek from my bedroom door. It is my brother having a seizure in his sleep.
My brother has had seizures since I was in my mommy’s tummy as a baby so I don’t know him any other way.
I love my big brother. He is the best big brother.
He can’t help himself when he has a seizure. It’s a medical problem.
Most people won’t understand seizures if they don’t get educated about them because people look okay on the outside but inside their brain they sometimes have a firework party that makes their whole body shake.
His body gets tight and shakes and he makes painful sounds for about 10 Or 20 seconds.
The time seems like hours when you have to watch your brother have a seizure but it’s only seconds.
Count 1 Mississippi
See it’s not too long but now I have to try to go back to sleep. I have a test at school tomorrow. Wait so does my brother. Oh no.
My tummy hurts a little because I am worried about him. Mom says I have to sleep school starts early in the morning for both of us.
Just when my parents get him settled back to sleep,
it happens again. And again.
My parents say this is a cluster and I should go back to bed. But they don’t know I really watch my brother.
I watch him sleep to make sure he is okay. I don’t want him to hurt himself.
Oh no, here comes another one. Breathe my mom says breathe.
This is hard to watch. Even the sounds are hard to listen to.
My brother is so strong he can hurt somebody when he has a seizure. Watch out mom. She ducks as he flails and swings his arms and legs.
I watched him break a table when I was younger. I watched him hurt himself when had a seizure and bumped the wall too hard.
I wish the doctors could fix my brother but they can’t.
I am going to be a doctor one day. I want to help kids who have seizures. I wonder how many other people see seizures at night. My mom calls them nocturnal seizures. I call them terrifying.
Nightfall can be peaceful on many days in many environments however there can also be a darkness associated with nightfall. This example shows a glimpse into a medical environment that is extreme to some and normal to others.
Some children have a different fear of nightfall. The sounds of rage or alcoholism for example. These sounds play out a bit differently. Ponder those thoughts or scenarios as you set in for your nightfall. Somehow the sounds of crickets seems worlds away.
This post came from the vault. A vault of posts that are written but may not come to life until a later date. For this post it’s today.
As the world has changed so much with corona, some nightfalls have remained the same for some but magnified for others. Those with scary nights like the ones noted above still suffer on top of the uncertainties corona brings. It’s important to consider the burden of others who may not be as lucky as you when night comes.