2019 was my Year of Fearless.
Some days, that word pushed me to do new things. To live a little differently. To take a breath and leap when I would usually just step back or walk away. I still have many of the same fears, but they don’t hold me back quite as much or quite as often.
All in all, the fearless served me well. I changed and grew in fearlessness, at least a little bit.
Now another turning of the year. What should follow my year of fearless?
Last year, as I selected my word, I spent a lot of time thinking, considering options, weighing possibilities.
This year was a no-brainer. It almost slapped me in the face. I picked up a set of notebooks while Christmas shopping, and there it was. So NOT me. But so needed to be!
The story began a while ago, in one of our gym-girl group chats. Someone (not me!) asked for a challenge, which became a dare, which turned into a quite funny mid-November-damp-overcast-chilly-afternoon episode of me running a lap outside around the gym in a swimsuit.
Yup, I stripped off my gym clothes and took off running. I mean, I’m a tank-top and shorts girl at the gym so the bathing suit was not much less than people see me wear most days, but still. Running through the parking lot in that for no apparent reason had me shallow-breathing-freaking-out through the entire class.
Growing up, whenever there was a game of truth or dare, I would quickly and silently slink out of the room. If I had to play I always chose truth. Dare left too much to chance.
And so, my One Little Word of 2020 is….Dare.
Dare to live big. Dare to do crazy things. Dare to continue to figure out who I am, and then dare to show people. Dare to put myself out there.
Dare to make big plans and, sometimes, dare to let go of the plan and see what happens. Dare to live in the moment.
Dare to dream outrageously. Dare to set big goals. And, maybe one of the things I fear most… dare to fail. Dare to flop. Dare to fall short. Dare to (eek!) disappoint, then dust myself off and dare again even more relentlessly.
I’ve set my goals this year. I set some that are all but surely out of reach. This is totally out of character for me. When I set goals, I usually pick something that I am relatively sure I can accomplish with a reasonable effort. Not. This. Year.
The quote that I wrote in the front of my goal book:
“If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough.”
-Ellen Johnson Sirleaf
Some of them do scare me. But in some ways, that’s exciting.
What word is guiding you this year?
Looking forward to sharing the dares as the year goes along!