For as long as I can remember, I have avoided being in photographs.
Don’t get me wrong, I love pictures. I’d challenge you to find someone with more photos on their phone. I take photos liberally. (Some might say too liberally). I enjoy taking pictures of people and sharing those snapshots with them. In our image-saturated social media driven society, images are powerful (if incomplete) representations of who we are, even glimpses of who we are becoming or who we would like to be.
Why don’t I like to see myself in photos? Some is a longtime dissatisfaction with how I look. Some is a resistance to being the focus of attention. I’m just more comfortable focusing the spotlight on others.
Of course I know that photos have their uses. The nutrition program I am on (Stronger U) encourages photos each week. I only did the before ones and I’m not done yet so I haven’t taken any more progress-type pics. You get the idea. I know the importance and benefit of pictures, but much of the time I still try to avoid them, unless I’m in a large group.
Once in a while, though, I’m brave enough to step out in front of a camera. Recently, the amazing Milagros offered professional photography services at our gym during the CrossFit Open. At Chick 1’s encouragement, I decided to do it. One of my favorite shots is linked in this post.
Then John, our resident CrossFit Faded Glory positivity promoter, snapped a few of me doing an overhead squat in an earllllyyyyy morning workout this past week. (The early hour shows in my eyes, but the arms…!)
Finally, I did take the usual family pics with my crew on Easter, but asked for a solo one as well.
When I saw these shots, each came as a surprise to me. They don’t match the picture I have of myself in my head. Instead of spongy and weak, I see someone who is getting stronger, more confident. My inner image needs an update.
I encourage those of you who are hiding from cameras this week to step in front of one for a shot or two. Pose if you want, or let someone take an action shot of you doing something you practice, something you enjoy. You may be surprised at how you look. It may also change how you see yourself.